Fear of Better

How weird is it to say you feared feeling good? When you are stuck in the darkness it is so hard to see the light. I remember that I had gotten so deep into depression, OCD, and emotional pain that I had trouble thinking things would get better. There were slivers of light that brought … Continue reading Fear of Better

To have gained, and not have…

As great as it is that I know what I want from someone, what I deserve, and what I am willing and not willing to settle for; as great as it is that I have learned how to really listen to my heart-you know that gut feeling you get, that internal reaction you have when … Continue reading To have gained, and not have…

2019, Here We Go

Well It is officially 2019. What will you do with it? For me, 2018 was still a bit rough and full of getting over a broken heart, learning about myself, being comfortable with saying no, doing what I want, and being who I am without fear of losing people in my life. I lost friends … Continue reading 2019, Here We Go

What Do You Do While You Wait?

When you want to know what's next, stop and think Do you have really control, or are you willing to live on the brink? You never know what's going to happen and, more or less, it just takes time Patience, hope, dreaming are all goals in creating this long-term vision of mine. When you are … Continue reading What Do You Do While You Wait?

Crushing goals

      Running the windy uphill trail at the state park in my town...This has been a goal for a while! No idea why but to challenge myself. Sometimes I come up with things that don't necessarily excite me but sound intriguing simply because it is a challenge. I woke up with this challenge … Continue reading Crushing goals

What path will you take?

It is definitely easier to stay in place than to take a leap or change direction. The unknown can be too much to risk. The "What ifs" suffocate you like a dark, ominous cloud, but yet you never even try to look up and see the light. It is definitely easier to distract yourself with … Continue reading What path will you take?

Lonely vs Alone

Have you ever stopped to think about the fact that there is a big difference between being lonely and being alone (solitude)? The difference is actually significant because one you can enjoy and learn a lot from, and the other stems from, and can cause discomfort, sadness, and depression. When you are in a crowd or with your … Continue reading Lonely vs Alone