May is Mental Health Month and although I know mental health/emotional health/mental wellbeing should be on the minds of everyone everyday of the year, I am also thrilled that there is a time dedicated to it solely. The only problem with one time dedicated to mental health awareness is that it keeps the stigma alive. … Continue reading Almost Mental Health Month
Growth. A word I wrote a few times in my journal over this last week. When I fell back into an anxiety spiral, I didn't let it consume me completely. I reached out to others and voiced how I was feeling, I forced myself into conversations that focused on anything but what I was thinking … Continue reading Growth
When I first started therapy, I was so deep into a rabbit hole of "What ifs" and "How do I knows if/that...?" I thought again and again about my past, what had just led up to me being in therapy, trying to make sense of it all! It was exhausting and here was my therapist … Continue reading My Way Through OCD Therapy
No one gets it. You try to explain and it just can't be grasped. Anxiety is like a tunnel vision, a foggy lens, a foreign language that only you can understand to the core. It is a vortex of thought that you get sucked deep down into without any escape in sight. Ever try to … Continue reading Can you love someone with anxiety?
When you get bad news and can't talk to the one person you want to talk to...now that's a shitty feeling. Stress at work and then one piece of bad news and you are lost. Turning around in circles. Left. Right. Back. Forward. Forward yes. But how?
Driving: my chill time, my reflection time, roll down the windows, sing, and just go. Never turning down the radio to hear how horrible I sound, but either singing at the top of my lungs, listening in silence, or just driving in silence. Drive. Forward. Fast. Free. When life feels like too much, I get … Continue reading On the Road Again
It is amazing that when you pick random letters, selected out of a pre-determined set of lines connected in ways to form a collection of 26 "letters" known as the alphabet, you can make words. These words can be used in ways that hurt people, motivate people, enrage people, and even love one another. The power of words is … Continue reading Words on a Page
I could tell you I was the target of mistreatment in high school or that I obsessed about my weight and working out to the point of unhealthiness or that I progressively got worse and worse with depression and anxiety until I began obsessing about my sexuality and relationships until it was finally diagnosed … Continue reading Preface to My Story
It is definitely easier to stay in place than to take a leap or change direction. The unknown can be too much to risk. The "What ifs" suffocate you like a dark, ominous cloud, but yet you never even try to look up and see the light. It is definitely easier to distract yourself with … Continue reading What path will you take?
Life is a marathon complete with all the pains, struggles, aches, bruises, victories, milestones, smiles, tears, support, and companions. If we try to sprint, we often get burnt out and it takes a while to build up the energy to get going again. But if we start out slow, keep a good pace, look at … Continue reading Running a Marathon