On the other side of mental health

I remember starting therapy over 2 years ago for severe anxiety and depression, but more specifically with a life-altering diagnosis of OCD. As she reviewed the physiology of OCD and the treatment plan with me, I sat there and asked, shocked at the possibility, "So what do I do and what will I think about … Continue reading On the other side of mental health

If only…

How do you keep moving forward when you are not sure where you are going? How do you know if it is time to let go of something or trust yourself and ride out how you feel until something shifts? What's meant to be, will be.....do you believe that? I am having a hard time … Continue reading If only…

Resilience

These messages were left at my door by my sister-in-law one night when I was living in California and today the same word was used to describe me. Resilient....adjective 1. springing back; rebounding. 2. returning to the original form or position after being bent,compressed, or stretched. 3. recovering readily from illness, depression, adversity, or the like; buoyant     … Continue reading Resilience

Positive Self Talk

Why is it so hard to believe others when they say how wonderful you are and how loving you are and how far you will go in life? Why can we only focus on who doesn't love us or what we are not, or where we fall short, or what's going wrong at that moment? … Continue reading Positive Self Talk

I Miss You

I miss the comfort; the ease; the love. I miss feeling like we were never strangers. I miss the silence that never mattered. I miss the hours that felt like seconds. I miss the honesty in my voice without hesitation. I miss the smiles that stretched out for miles. I miss not caring what anyone else … Continue reading I Miss You

Murky Waters

Dealing with any mental health issue can be like trudging through murky waters. Everything looks cloudy and you, no matter how hard you try and how many different ways you look at it, cannot make out anything concrete. You can't see the life in the waters below, the tops of your feet, or any sign of … Continue reading Murky Waters

Just Jump

Tonight my coworker looked at me and said, "stop planning and strategizing so much, just jump! Stop saying "but this pool is bigger, my friend is over here, what if the water is too cold..just get in there!" He is the same one who, on our two hour hike on Friday said, "stop giving people power … Continue reading Just Jump

InDeCiSiOn

Indecision. Don't know the best kind of apple to buy so you don't get any, can't choose the best order to do our errands to be efficient so it becomes whatever you see first, can't choose what color nail polish to use so you use both. Inconvenient. Nagging. Frustrating. Time consuming. I mean, how long can one spend staring … Continue reading InDeCiSiOn