Fear of Better

How weird is it to say you feared feeling good? When you are stuck in the darkness it is so hard to see the light. I remember that I had gotten so deep into depression, OCD, and emotional pain that I had trouble thinking things would get better. There were slivers of light that brought … Continue reading Fear of Better

My Way Through OCD Therapy

When I first started therapy, I was so deep into a rabbit hole of "What ifs" and "How do I knows if/that...?" I thought again and again about my past, what had just led up to me being in therapy, trying to make sense of it all! It was exhausting and here was my therapist … Continue reading My Way Through OCD Therapy

3 Letters with Impact

Three innocent letters that when put together encompassed so much pain yet so much potential. Sometimes people ask me how I felt when I was diagnosed and my answer is always "relieved!" The amount of emotional pain I was in was unlike anything I had ever experienced, and it had been almost ten years since … Continue reading 3 Letters with Impact

On the other side of mental health

I remember starting therapy over 2 years ago for severe anxiety and depression, but more specifically with a life-altering diagnosis of OCD. As she reviewed the physiology of OCD and the treatment plan with me, I sat there and asked, shocked at the possibility, "So what do I do and what will I think about … Continue reading On the other side of mental health

Mental Health Month

People ask me how I changed my life around. Short answer: I had to. Something happened and not changing was no longer an option. In honor of Mental Health Awareness Month, I reflect on the last few years! After suffering from anxiety and depression starting in high school, not knowing what was going on at … Continue reading Mental Health Month

These are a Few of My Favorite Things

When I was in the heart of hating my OCD and trying to understand what was going on, I found a peace in learning. I was also wishing some people were with me when I found these resources to see the truth of this monster. These pieces told me so much, educated me, reassured me … Continue reading These are a Few of My Favorite Things

Never Judge A Book

Being aware of your struggles is one thing but once you are in control of your own struggles, being aware that other people struggle offers a whole separate level of empathy and compassion. Today I took a few minutes to respond to a post in a support group on Facebook from someone who went out … Continue reading Never Judge A Book

10 Lessons Learned

Sharing with you some of my most critical pieces of information I┬álearned in therapy during my journey to mental health: Find a specialist. I put this as number 1 because it truly is the number 1 thing to do! I accredit all my success to my therapist now who knew how to tackle what I … Continue reading 10 Lessons Learned