When the Ebbs Flow

5 years in and it still happens.Yup our moods can change. They ebb and flow and the ebbs flow and will always ebb again.I have accepted that my mood can dip without notice, and I just have to be patient. Part of the nature of mental health is that it happens. You wake up one … Continue reading When the Ebbs Flow

3 Letters with Impact

Three innocent letters that when put together encompassed so much pain yet so much potential. Sometimes people ask me how I felt when I was diagnosed and my answer is always "relieved!" The amount of emotional pain I was in was unlike anything I had ever experienced, and it had been almost ten years since … Continue reading 3 Letters with Impact

ROCD Hell

An individual found me through my article, Lessons Learned from rOCD, on the OCD stories website and contacted me through this blog. It came with an attachment: an iphone "note" titled "ROCD Hell." It so painfully reminded me of exactly how I felt when I was in a relationship but plagued by anxiety. Reading someone's … Continue reading ROCD Hell

What Do You Do While You Wait?

When you want to know what's next, stop and think Do you have really control, or are you willing to live on the brink? You never know what's going to happen and, more or less, it just takes time Patience, hope, dreaming are all goals in creating this long-term vision of mine. When you are … Continue reading What Do You Do While You Wait?

Resilience

These messages were left at my door by my sister-in-law one night when I was living in California and today the same word was used to describe me. Resilient....adjective 1. springing back; rebounding. 2. returning to the original form or position after being bent,compressed, or stretched. 3. recovering readily from illness, depression, adversity, or the like; buoyant     … Continue reading Resilience

The Barbell Will Not Budge

The barbell will not budge. There is too much weight on the bar, my form might be sacrificed due to mental and physical fatigue, but yet my subconscious says “just one more time.” Maintaining a stubborn sense of “this can be done” while living in the parameters of reality can be exhausting, but admitting defeat … Continue reading The Barbell Will Not Budge